The problem with winning

Just 10 months ago, I upgraded to cat 2. I went from racing cat 3, to racing with the big boys. The first race I did was Crossroads. It's a week-long Twilight Crit series. It was my first set of Pro/1/2 racing and boy was I in the deep end. My buddy Stefan and I showed u to a start line full of nrc teams that were fully supported. Kinda a punch in the face for me. Not the best first time experience. However, I love jumping into the deep end. It makes it seem like the local race stuff is easy. So anyways, I started this year not knowing what to expect. Majority of the time, "rookie" cat 2's generally have an off year their first year. I didn't know if that was going to happen to me so I went into the year ready for whatever and knowing I was going to keep my head high regardless of what happens. Well guess what, I won a race 2 months into the season. Ok, the normal person would say thats awesome, but I am not a normal person. It was awesome at the time, and for a good month afterwards. But right now, IT SUCKS. I'm kinda in a slump right now, I'm getting dropped in races, not putting out any power, doing what a normal cat 2 "rookie" does. But wait, I have already won a pro/1/2 race, I can't be getting dropped in races. It sucks because that race raised my standards. I'm a big fan of having low standards (when it comes to racing a bike that is) so that way I'm never disappointed, but some how the opposite has happened. And it sucks cause I can't meet those standards. So what am I going to do? Well I'm starting off by getting my power tap running. I ordered one 2 months ago and it is supposed to get here this week. I think that is a good start. Something like that makes all the difference. Also, it's time to start training and stop riding. I enjoy riding, but I have found out that I enjoy winning more than riding. Having a training plan saves alot of time and energy. Why ride 4 hours when you can ride 2 hours and do some organized intervals, and that 2 hour ride is better for your legs. I'm a big fan of doing whatever you want to do when it comes to riding a bike. However, that is obviously not working for me right now, so it time to start training!